Vignettes V

– So Bunny Ears and I seem to have petered off. We’ve had a few texts here and there, and mentioned getting together over the holidays, but it never happened. He’s a bit too much hassle anyways, I mean I’ve had less difficulty scheduling appointments with local dignitaries than getting together with him. I’m choosing to not let it affect my ego.

– My brother mentioned to me a few of his difficulties with his girlfriend the other day. I could cheerfully have gone my whole life without knowing how conservative he is sexually, and knowing what she was trying to initiate with him. Awkward.

– I took down my profile from one site the other day. I was a bit put off by some of the messages I was getting. However I forgot that I had a profile on another site, and suddenly I seem to be getting a lot of attention over there. It’s a whole different crowd at the other site, so maybe I’ll hang there for a while.

– I haven’t met Link yet, it seems like he has joint custody of his children, so getting together with him is quite legitimately challenging. He’s quite sweet, so I’m content to be patient.

– I did get a couple of emails re: my post below- I would love to see some more!

A Potential Second Suitor…

So I’m thinking about meeting someone new this weekend. As I’ve mentioned, I haven’t quite sorted out the Administrative details of all this in my head.

I’m not sure how I feel about having more than one partner going on at the same time (please note, I do not mean simultaneously :P) This is not for any moralistic reason- more just for safety/health etc.

However, as much as I adore Bunny Ears, I’ve meet him twice in a month and a half and getting together with him is quite honestly a pain in the ass. I mean we’re both single, and scheduling a time to get together? Much more effort than it’s worth. Especially since it’s not like we need to spend more than a couple of hours together.

So, I’m thinking about meeting #2 this weekend. Let’s call him “Link.” (Due to a combination of reasons involving his profile name). Link is the one who said that it was cool if I wasn’t interested, and that I should write erotica.

We’ve exchanged a few naughty emails, and he’s quite a good writer himself. Very detailed. Perhaps I’ll post some of it on here soon.

The one thing that I find hilarious though is that he comments on my writing in a rather specific way. He told me that in one part I gave a “good visual.” I am dying to know if he’s an English teacher of some sort.

I am still apprehensive about these meetings though. Generally on a date I worry about things like whether or not they’ll find me cute/interesting/intelligent.

On these “dates” I’m more concerned about whether or not there’s an attraction, but even more importantly- how these men are feeling about these kinds of meetings. I.e are they going to be misogynistic assholes who are going to act like I’m a whore because of how we met? Now being treated like whore in the bedroom = good. Being treated like whore out in public because I’m owning my sexuality= not good and potentially scary.

But, the initial meeting must be done, and I have to remind myself that I am in control. And I have the choice to stay or go or decide to take things further.

So far, Link has been as gentlemanly as I would like, as well as naughty as I would like too.

Hopefully with time, I’ll get the hang of all this…

Vignettes IV

I got the sweetest message from one of my potential suitors tonight. He said it was cool that I wasn’t interested in him (to be honest, I can barely keep up with them all – I don’t know if I was ever interested or not) but that I should write erotica. Nice to know that some of them on there have some class. Makes me think that I should give that guy a chance if he’s going to be such a sweetheart about it.

I’m still trying to sort out the Administrative details of all this. Take Bunny Ears for example. I saw him Friday night. Does it equate to needy if I get all texty and tell him I would love to see him again? Is there some sort of 3 day rule with this kind of thing? Cause yeah, it’s been 5 days…I would really love to see him…

For the girls: do you find it to be just a wee bit of a pain in the ass how much grooming you have to do in preparation? Men: what do you do to prep for us?

I know I’ve mentioned this before, but I find it hilarious how sexualized everything has become now. Glimpses of photos in the paper immediately look dirty until I examine them more closely and see how innocuous they really are. I get turned on and wet bu just a stray thought now. Sexuality really is a muscle..and the more you work it…

I was asked in my last post where Bunny Ears got his nickname. It came as a result of one of the photos he sent me.

73 year old man sent me another message. Ack! No! I don’t want to be rude, but just…no!

One of my email suitors from this blog sent me a photo. He’s quite adorable- unfortunately, he lives in another country. Yes it’s the country next door and all- but still…M- offer to fly me down and I’ll consider it!

Variety is the Spice Of Life…

So, as mentioned Bunny Ears came over last night. He told me to be wearing something “trashy.” I went for more cliché than anything. The stockings and shoes in my profile pic, a lacy camisole and panties, a loosely ties short robe over it and a long string of pearls. Too much? Maybe, but it was fun playing dress-up…

I do enjoy a man who gets right to the point too. I barely got a “hello” out before I had hands and tongue all over me. The couch portion of the evening lasted about 2 minutes before I led him to the bedroom. I did however, force him to admire the ensemble I had put together for myself. He didn’t seem to care. The boy needs to learn to appreciate aesthetics more.

There was a very brief making out period before he decided that his tongue could be put to much better use elsewhere. He seems to be one of the men who actually mean it when he says he loves oral sex. Both giving and receiving.

He does like variety. A very thorough oral sex session for me, a little 69 action, followed by me riding him, then him on top of me, then me going down on him, then him going down on me, then a bit more of me on top, a bit more of me down on him…I think you get the idea….

All in all, I would have to say that all of the basics were covered. By the time it was all over, I was shocked that he could last an hour that way…

I even expressed a bit of concern that I just wasn’t doing my job properly, but he assured me otherwise. He simply seems to have full control of himself and can make it last and last…an excellent quality in a man.

I am completely sore all over today and would kill for a massage. But based on the reasons why? Well, I’m certainly not complaining…

Vignettes 3

So it’s been a few days- I apologise for inadvertently keeping you all in suspense. In response to Misstress M– unfortunately life got in the way and I didn’t end up managing to see Bunny Ears this past weekend. Damn reality getting in the way of fantasy.

The photo above? That’s the little box o’ fun that I keep beside my bed. A bit of erotica. A couple vibrators. Condoms. Nothing too exotic (yet).

So as a result of this little blog that is today celebrating it’s one month birthday- I have received a couple of emails this week. One from S in Vancouver, and one from M in Los Angeles. Welcome to the party gentlemen. I would love to meet each of you, it’s too bad that you’re not a bit closer to home. Perhaps we could meet somewhere in the middle?

So I sent Bunny rears a few suggestive texts this week. Just making sure he doesn’t start neglecting me. It resulted in the offer of a nooner, then asking what time I got off work, then wanting to come over late that evening. Then when I texted back that night, telling him all the things I was doing to make up for the fact that he wasn’t there, he offered to come right over. Too bad I had such a crazy work week- I almost let him come that night. In retrospect I kind of wish I had…Our bloody schedules are just not meshing at all…

Ok my sexy darlings, off to carry on with the whirlwind that is my life right now. I would kill for a few days off just to breathe….

The Duchess’s Desires…

I am a sweet girl. Sometimes to the point of giving one a toothache. And I’m generally kind, considerate and understanding. What do all of these lovely adjectives result in? Everyone else getting what they want, and the Duchess simply accepting.

So tonight, I would like to put it out there to the universe. I want to say exactly what I want. Perhaps this will give me the power and confidence to expect it, and take it.

I have a date with Bunny Ears on Saturday. I want him to greet me at the door in scarcely more than a towel. I want him to feel his impatience as I take off my jacket and shoes. I want him to pin me against the wall, undo my jeans and slide his fingers into my pussy. I want to feel his teeth on my earlobes and his tongue running down my neck. I want him to pull down my panties pull my leg up over his hip and thrust his cock into me hard and deep. I want it fast and rough and impatient.

Then we can move to the bedroom….

I want a partner who shows me that he wants me with every look, touch and word. I want to know that I can have him at any time. I want a man who will wake me up in the middle of the night with his tongue on my clit. I want a man who will tie me up and blindfold me and make me scream in lust and beg for more. I want a man who is willing to lick chocolate off my breasts and honey off my cunt. I want a man who can talk dirty to me without sounding ridiculous. I want someone who will come to a lingerie store with me, make me model everything, fuck me in the change room and pick up the bill.

Is that all? Not even remotely…but it might be enough to ask for tonight.

What do YOU want?