Confessional


The vast majority of my posts are either highly polished and edited, or throw-away reviews. It’s very rare that I just open up the program and begin writing – but that’s what you have here this evening. I occasionally feel that no one who reads this blog actually knows who “The Duchess” is.

I understand that it’s a persona that I’ve put on, and for the most part, people read a blog like this for the fantasy. But occasionally I wonder if anyone can actually feel any loyalty to, or relate with a person who never actually writes in their own voice.

So, this evening, you have a little bit of (topical) truth/confessions from the Duchess. Call it a stream of consciousness in bullet-form.

– I have never in fact kissed a girl. Sometimes I feel that I’ve missed out on something. And other times, I feel that kind of thought is simply generational. Did women my age 20 years ago lament their lack of intimacy with the opposite sex if they were not actually inclined that way?

– I find shaving my girly bits to be a pain in the ass. I mean seriously. Seriously. There’s a LOT going on down there, and having a razor scraping at my pink parts is just not something that I think the Goddess intended. I resent men who demand (or to be honest, even request) it.

– I’ve only had a couple honest-to-goodness one-night-stands in my life. Planned encounters with internet men don’t count in this scenario. For the most part, they were unsuccessful, since they were never with actual strangers. So someone always ended up getting hurt in the scenario. Annoying.

– I’ve never understood the pre-occupation with breast size. I’ve had men tell me that women all compare and compete with each other. I was confused about this, and mentioned that I never had. The response? “That’s because you’ve never been in a position to lose Duchess.” Oh. Yeah. I have a rack. I could cheerfully lose a couple of cup sizes and be perfectly content. I mean once you get bigger than a B or C – what’s the point? Really you just want to fill out a sweater nicely, right?

– I really struggle with my two personae – the Princess vs the Duchess. I over-compensate when dressing for work, out of fear of looking too provocative – so I often borderline on mousy. I want a man to seduce me with words and actions – but know myself well enough to wonder if I would ever really allow it in a spontaneous organic way. The Princessy control-freak in me really takes away the fun sometimes.

– Many of the men I’ve written about on here truly do exist – but I genuinely have no idea what to do about the ones I touch myself for in secret. I’m in awe of all the blogs I read where you phenomenal women seduce men seemingly effortlessly. I would kill for that kind of confidence.

Alright, that’s enough confession for one night.
I would love to hear your own confessions in the comments…

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8 thoughts on “Confessional

  1. Aurore says:

    I swear – separated.at.birth!I also wish I had the confidence to seduce a man effortlessly, then maybe I wouldn't need to be celibate 😉

  2. Andy says:

    The girl kissing one seems easy to fix. I'm sure you'd have plenty of takers. Shaving: yeah, I agree. How do women deal with all that stuff when they shave? I do like the look of a nicely filled out sweater, but in bed breast size is not terribly important. I've had very small to very large, and like them all. Some of us like that understated, mousy or librarian look. I have to believe that post/profile on CL or AM would get you men throwing themselves at you.

  3. Lilly says:

    I think that more people than you realize are NOT their blogger persona thru and thru. Meet me in person and until I'm comfortable with you, you aren't going to see a whole lot of Lilly. Also, I fucking hate shaving. Or using creams. or those fucking stupid "wax strips" that do nothing but leave you with a sticky mound of still-hairy puss. BUT I love the way it feels when it's smooth and I appreciate how it looks. I only do it for new guys or special occasions. Until such time I can afford to get waxed, that is. Also one more point to consider: You, Duchess, sitting at your computer, don't really and truly know who all is telling the TRUTH when they say "I did XYZ with this and that guy"…..do you…. 😉

  4. Petal says:

    I think most of us on here are not 'all' the person we portray in our blogs…wax babe, professionally – the only way, shaving is indeed nasty!No comment on the boobs, Im an A cup, I aint never gonna fill out nuffin! but I deeply envy women that do!Confidence to seduce a man…fake it until ya make it I say, hey works for me! [only cause I know they are more afraid of me than I of them…just a wee secret there]

  5. Plenty of us DO like the mousy look. :)I confess I don't have the self-confidence and dominant streak that shows a lot of the time in my entries. But then, my journal's intended as an exploration of both real life events, plus thoughts and fantasies.Another confession: I like what you write here, whether it's as The Duchess, or just you being you. Share more of yourself via real confessions, if you want. I know I'd like that.– PB

  6. Topaz says:

    Shaving/waxing is a personal choice which depends on how much hassle it's worth… hence, I wax monthly…And I never understood why men think women enter their boobs in competition! You hit the nail on the head with filling out a sweater.I wear 'Topaz' like you wear 'Duchess', but instead of clothes to overcompensate, I dress in an uber-professional confidence to ensure men take me seriously. There's my confession!

  7. Yeah especially after my non-incident with HWHYtbN, I dont think I'll be shaving. Its a pain in the ass to do it, not to mention the itching and bumps after.No comment on the breast size thing. Im a natural 44DD so I've never had any complaints in that dept.I dont really have a lot of confidence in real life. The magic of these kind of relationships is that all the pretenses are gone as far as what you are looking for. I'm pretty much a soccer mom from the outside. I could never outright seduce a stranger.

  8. OMG sooooo agree about the shaving down there. I happen to have a gorgeous head of thick hair… umm, therefore… you get where I'm going here. And I'm with you on the seduction thing too… if only it was that easy.

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